I got about an hour of sleep last night. My eyes are swollen from crying.

Dan asked me to mail a package yesterday to his sister. The post office was so busy so I went to the UPS store. So I did, but it won't get there until the 29th. And he starts yelling, saying how I ruined christmas, and that I should of listened to him and taken it to the post office. HE says it will get to her in 3 days. NO, NO IT WON"T! They are supper busy so it's going to take them even longer then UPS. I told him that if he wanted it on time that we should of done this last week.

He tells me I don't care about him, tells me I'm selfish. And I told him that he makes me feel like a bad person. I really try my best to be the wife he want's me to be, but everyday I seem to say something wrong, even if there is no wrong answer.

I dunno how much longer I can do this. I can't keep crying. I'm losing my mind, and this stress is killing me. I'm just so tired of everything. I seriously started to think about divorce.

And then from the other end, my mom is e-mailing me, telling me she needs money to make a payment on her Van or they are going to lose it. Great more stress. She tells me that she tried to sell her rings, but they won't buy them. She is a complete downer in any conversation. I've already hauked the title to my Durango to get by, but I'm not complaining about it.

Even now I can't seem to stop crying.

Never fall in love, it's too painful.